well,been waiting for dear's text.atlast he did text me.
but with pejal's phone!
well,i regret venting anger on him.
i don't understand why can't guys understand girls.
they want us to understand but they don't want to understand us.
and end up with an arguements.
baby,i promise i won't be talking my problems to you okay.
i won't make you suffer.
not anymore.
once is enough.i'm having phobias lah okay.
i just don't want you to leave me anymore.
it just hurt so badly can?
i hate making people suffer.
am i that bad to be somebody's friend or girlfriend?
it hurts me so much lah okay.
it really hurts.only god knows how i feel.
yes,i don have eda and gegerl.
but they won't be listening to me for like 24/7.
they have their problems too.
i can't rely on them.
i'm so depressed.
i'm sad cause my boyfriend couldn't understand my situation.
but i can't blame him cause it's difficult understand my feelings.
it's hard for me to explain.
somehow,deep inside,i still love him.
baby,all i need is you.
you'll never know how much and deep my love for you.
honestly,my situation and feeza love's situation is almost the same.
but people,i'm not strong.
i'm sensative,i'm fragile,i break down easily and i cry!
that's what i do when i'm down.
where can i find strength people?
tell me pleaseeee.
i'm in delimma.
fuck life for being so difficult.
and i'm so over it,i swear.
it's hard for me to control these feelings.
i can't keep everything to myself.
i can't handle everything by myself.
i'm too young to face all this by myself.
oh god,why am i posting about this fucking crap?
i feel like shit lah okay.
whatever it is,i feel much better letting out here.
i'll try to change.
although it's hard for me to restart/refresh.
baby,forgive me for whatever reason.
i know i'm the one to be blame.
i'll always love you okay.
promise.
oh fellow blogmates.
if you hate reading my post,you know what to do.
what's the matter with you people!
yes,i do randomly post about my life and my bf.
so what!got a problem with that.hell yeah,if you do get lost lah sey.
you irritating pests!
i may not like you either.
sheesh!fuck off lah :DD
baby,call me when you get home tauu.
much love.
forgive me kissables.
much love,ika.
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